The Despair Day In My Life

The day i cant forget!!

2009-10-14T06:58:00.000-07:00

Hi!long time write blog~
i thought i can stop writing my despair day in my life!!
But i wrong today it happen again~

The story is like this,yesterday i tell a girl i like her.
but she say i not really like her and i just playing her feeling!!
after that i keep telling her i using the true heart to like her,
i still can remember last sms and tell her i really like and i not playing
and i hope she can understand that~
after that she send back me another sms and say
Let talk at school tomorrow!!!

Today 12.00pm i want go down and look for her,
but my class got teacher and i cant go out from my class~
i tell her friend i will find her tomorrow.
But when i go back my house i suddenly feel that i need to settle this fast.
i want to let her know i really like her and i not playing!!

When i go back school and sit at Kantin and wait her recess!
but i wait long time also cant see her
i do know she want to keep away from me or what
and i wait her until her recess time over!!
But until the end i also cant find her~

At 8.45pm i try to sms and try to find out whats going on?
i ask why i cant see at kantin and why u call me talk at school and u not at there!!
she reply me that''i just say talk tomorrow and i not call u stay at school wait me,this few day i maybe wont see u.bb''
in that time i can hear my heart broken half.....

I dont know why i so hard to find a gf~
haiz..... that all i want to say about it!!

Haiz....

2009-06-06T05:01:00.000-07:00

Today early in the morning I start scold by my mom!!
My Mom ask why i always go out friends?
I dont know how to answer back my mom.....

After that I go Time Square by LRT.
Before I reach there I make a few call to my Friend.
First is Sze Ken.And he say maybe he cant come is because his GF want he go her house.
Second I call to Kah Chun.And I ask do you reach there yet?He say he coming with Kelly(He take Kelly Car to Time Square!!)

When I reach Hang Tuah I make a call to Kah Chun and ask do he reach there yet?
He say he still in the middle of the road.
Then I walk to Time Square first.

When I reach Time Square,I go StarBucks buy coffee and wait them at outside.
After 10min I call Kah chun again ask where are he now?
He Say he reach there very long ago.Then i ask he where are u now I come and join you all?
He say dont need it because all his friend i also dont know who are them and he call me wait for Sze Ken.
After that I make a call to Sze Ken and he say he not coming because his GF need he go her house now.

After I finish the call i start find Kah Chun and his friends.
I almost walk finish the Time Square but still cant find them.
Then i sms Kah Chun where are he now?
He reply back and say I also dont know where are me now?=-=''
And call me go Sungai Wang see the rollerblade myself.
After finish the sms.I also no go Sungai Wang and I still in Time Square search them and wait them.
Everytime i sms ask Kah Chun where are you now?
He always reply this few sentence.
1)You wait Sze Ken first he coming now.
2)This is a screat cannot tell you.
3)I also dont where I am now.
4)Go Sungai Wang see your rollerblade.

After wait for them 2 hour,I start line up buying movie ticket.
I call Kah Chun again,and I ask do you want watch movie with me?
He say I busy now cant watch movie now.
I straight scold back why you call me come from Time Square?Call you watch movie you dont want.You call me come Time Square for what?
Then I off my phone.
After that I write a sms to he.
The sms I write,I treat like my brother You treat me like your what?
Then I buy a Ticket and watch myself!!!!

When I go in cinema I see many people come in a group of friend but I come in solo.
I feel that Im very lonely.People laugh the movie is because funny but I laugh why i have this kind friend!!!
I treat he using my true heart!!He treat me like what???
A friend???
In his heart I really a friend to he??
Haiz.....

After I finish the movie i take out my phone and see a sms by Kah Chun.
The sms say that where are you now do you still in Time Square?
I call back he and ask where are you now?
He say he at Sungai Wang RedBox singing!!!
I faster run to Sungai Wang find he.
When I reach there I start finding where the RedBox?
Sungai Wang is very big and very hard to find a shop!!
When I go deeper of Sungai Wang I feel that very scary it because almost no people at there and very hard to find a life to go the 6th floor.
At last I finally go up 6th floor.
6th floor is very big I try go ask people where RedBox they say at 6th floor but I find all the shop but dont have RedBox I only find GreenBox.Haiz....

Find so long also cant find.So I decide go back home.
When I in the way back home I thinking Kah Chun really is my friend?
The rescult is I also dont know~
The only people that know is YOU!!!

Kah Chun!!!

Kah Chun if you read this I want to tell you that Im treat you as my BF(best friend)And I hope you treat me as the same way that I treat you!!!!

P.S:I wait you for almost 6 hour!!!

Am I dreaming now????

2009-05-28T05:49:00.000-07:00

Today i see many of my friend going the counseling room to find teacher for help?
Then i feel very weird cause the friend that i know is study before peralihan(same as me)!!!
Then i go check it out what happen???

suddenly got 1 friend walk pass me and say he got the National Service Letter~
I straightly shock~What the......
He get the letter already~Why i haven get mine(I check it before and I choose for The National Service)!!
Firstly i think maybe i going for the last group!!
Then when i go back i check my name again?
The Resuclt come out is I going for the Group 3 National Service!!!
I Faster run down there i check my mail box~
I really get the Letter from the grovement!!!TT-TT
Omg~

After that i go back school and find the counselor~
But Unfotunately the counselor is go back already!!
Suddenly My Brain Come out 1 word
Despair
I need to go back school tomorrow and find the teacher!!!
Hope the teacher will come!!if not i really DIE!!!

Reject by girl again!!! TT-TT

2009-05-18T05:36:00.000-07:00

Today i reject by the girl i like again TT-TT
Damn sad now!!!
The only word i can say that is
DESPAIR

Why all the girl keep reject me =-=''
I really got serious face problem???

Haiz i feel like want to jump down from the top of KLCC!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My Heart damn pain(can't find other word can express my feel now)

So Long This Cruel World TT-TT !!!
Please don't stop me!!And don't advise me!!
Bye Bye My Friend!!

What Is Love?

2009-05-13T07:11:00.000-07:00

What is Love???
What The Meaning Of Love????

I really don't know what the meaning of LOVE???
Love 1 people is a kind of suffer.
It because the people who you Love they don't know you like HER!!!!
And you only can threat them like normal friend!!!
Cause you don't want to let Her know You like Her!!!
Is This Kind Of Action Is Call Love??
I also don't know?

If the girl don't like but you still like Her
Do you wait for the girl to changes their mind?
And do you wait for Her 1 or 2 year to changes Her Mind?
Is Very Hard To Say!!!

Haiz...... No Comment At ALL!!!!

Waa~Exam so HARD

2009-05-11T06:42:00.000-07:00

Today i get my Bahasa Melayu Exam~
Firstly i get paper 2 first,i open the 1st page and i see what question
i straightly shock cause i don't how to do the question =-=''

After recess i get my paper 1 that is writing essay
1st page i see the picture my mind straightly empty inside all white!!!
i can't even finish 100 word =-=''

HAIZ

Hope tomorrow English Exam can get better!!

i Think Today Maybe Is A Good Day -o-

2009-05-09T06:27:00.000-07:00

Today the i not going to tuition~
So boring staying at house nothing to do!!!

At Afternoon i go Carrefour meet up my friend.
When i reach there i discover so thing new
That is.....
A rollerblade field in 7th floor,wow so cool!!!!
The entry fee only RM10 and no time limit!!!
So GOOD
Then i go and play ^_^
But only got 1 problem i don't know how to play!!!
When i finish wearing the rollerblade and try to stand up
I try very hard to stand up but not enough 1 minutes i fall down
At that time i only know rollerblade is very hard to play TT-TT
I fall until my knee like broke already~~SO PAIN!!
I think i fall enough 20+ time

Finish playing rollerblade i go house and take care my wound!!
After 7.00pm suddenly a call from Sze Ken Father!!!
He asking me Sze Ken got go tuition or not!!
I say got cause just now i call he and he say he in tuition centre
then Sze Ken Father say he haven come back house yet!!!
That time i shock already and i don't know how to do
The thing i can only say is call Sze Ken Father don't worry he will back soon~

After 8.00pm A call from Sze Ken Mother she say Sze Ken haven back yet
and ask me do i know where Sze Ken is???
That Time I think myself how i know where is he now??
I'm not Sze Ken how i know where is he??
I only can tell she maybe he going to his friends house sleep over only and call she don't too worry cause Sze Ken so big already he can take care hisself!!
After Finish the phone i think again and again what kind of person Sze Ken is???
The Answer is I also don't know =-=''

HAIZ..................

Haiz What A Day

2009-05-08T07:19:00.000-07:00

Today Before I go to school i already got a feel that today will happen many thing!!!
Then my prediction is come true today~~
Today really happen many thing in me~~ =-=''

Today when i go to school i straight away find Kah Chun(My Friend)
And i tell he today ours Principal sure us and shoot the Choir Team~~
He say he have the same feel here~~

After the assembly our Principal really call the Choir Team Stay Back For The assembly
she got some thing need to talk all Choir Member!!!

Me And Kah Chun reach first then we wait for THE PRINCIPAL a while
before she come,i think inside my mind and i think''Shit we this time get top 5 again sure shoot by principal''

When the Principal reach there firstly she sit down first then she start shoot us
She Say''Why you all keep taking top 5 in 2 year''
we all keep quiet and not answer her question cause if talk back sure shoot us back more serious
Then she say our tempo and face emotion is very bad~~
Got 1 thing she say it make me angry,she say us very discriminate against other races!!!!
waaa~when we starting discriminate against other races,not us not letting other races it because
we all the member is chinese and 1 indian only where we can find malay to join the competition if we dont have malay joining the team!!!! =-='' HAIZ no commet to say this!!!

After that our Perabot teacher call me get some chair to the student and he left a key to me
and call me put back the key to he before the school end~~

When i reach back my class i only can see some of my friend coming to school~~including me not enough 10 people in class =-=''
Then i start chating with Yin Yee and Pei Yi,i tell them i very Despair cause i lose the competition!!!!i really put all my hope inside the competition but at last also LOSE!!!
Then they start cheering me up but i still like cant cheer up cause no mood ma!!!
Then Yin Yee say if u not cheer up back i will not be friend with u anymore!!!OMG~~~
Then i joking and say never mind is ok u not doing friend with me~~~
After i finish my word she start crying TT-TT~~~OMG!!!
i make her CRY~~
i faster cheer her up but it seen like useless~~ =-=''
after that Kah Weng come and start cheering her up it seen like is better then me she really cheer up again
HAIZ.....why i so useless let a girl cry in front of me!!!!
VERY SORRY LET YOU CRY IN FRONT OF ME!!!I WON'T LET A GIRL CRY IN FRONT OF ME EVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SORRY YIN YEE

At Recess Time i broke my glasses =-='' so DESPAIR!!!!
O~well is ok to me cause i have spare glasses inside my bag HAHAHAHAHA~
Haiz i broke my glasses again =-=''
After i change my glasses i go library meet Ann Na(Choir Leader)to solve the problem of choir

Finish the recess i go back class and i saw Yin Yee cry again!!!!OMG~~~not again
i ask her why she crying Pei Yi say he slap people and then she cry!!=-='' o~~~
i start cheer her up again!!this time finally work~i finally cheer her up im so happy ^_^
then we chat until the end of the school!!
So Happy Ending!!!
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But Wait like i forgetting some thing~~
Some Thing important~~
What is IT??????
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OMG the KEY left with me and i forget to give back teacher!!!!

Sorry Teacher I Will Give It Back By Monday

The Despair Day In My Life!!! TT-TT

2009-05-07T02:21:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone welcome to My Blog
This Is The FIRST time i writing a blog
and also the most despair day in my whole LIFE!!!

Today Is The Big Day For Me(Choir Competition)
Today I wake up in 4.00a.m to prepare the competition
And I reach school is about 5.30a.m.
Then We start warm up ours voice.

About 7.30a.m we start a performance at school.
When is about 8.00a.m the bus is reach then we start our journey
We are the first team of choir reach the school.

The competition start at 10.00a.m(is about this time)
we are the last team to make the performance
when i go up the stage I start nervous but I also hold on to the last

The result is come out about 12.30p.m
and we got No.5 Again~~~
I though we can get Second Or Third =-=''
And now I Only can despair!!!!!

SO SAD CANT GET THE CHAMPION~~ T-T